..............................does not mean taking a gun to
one's head. Serial killers have the same problem because they
know that eventually they will be punished by society, which is
what they were always looking for since childhood, good corrective
love. So now you can see that childhood love can never be conditional.
Can adult love be conditional? In any marriage and good friendship
there is often unconditional love, however when one or the other
is getting away with a childish act the other party builds resentment,
if unexpressed, to the one who is wrong. This cannot go on forever
otherwise there is a divorce. Expressing one's feelings of resentment
must be considered conditional too. It is not a matter of correction
or discipline at this level of relationship.
When one is loving to the innocent child, firstly there cannot
be any feelings of resentment coming from the parent because the
innocent child feels the negative vibes and therefore becomes
insecure. The child throws the bottle back at mother for example.
The infant's insecurities develop early when the parent is herself
insecure and inexperienced. This is where common sense is needed
to parent properly. Learning to be a good parent will help. The
baby or child will cry or test out the parent with behavior patterns
subjecting the parent to further testing. The infant child will
constantly test its environment to see how much it can get away
with and at the same time be testing the parent's weaknesses.
The child has a tendency towards developing its own pridefulness
which is no different to the ego of the adult parent. In religions
this is called temptation. As the child begins to feel the pride,
as he falls for temptations he fails and learns to seek more of
this feeling of corruption to begin the cycle over again for the
new generation. The child's constant lack of self-control and
disrespect for elders is reinforced as no one corrects the behavior
patterns. This is the beginning of the suicidal tendencies. The
child then reinforces his anger and resentment with many of societies
addictions. These can all be found in movies, pornography which
is very destructive, gangs and cults and so much more worldly
creations. From all of these the suicidal feelings grow and are
overridden by other feelings only temporarily. When the gang loses
its power or the anger becomes overwhelming another solution is
necessary for the strong feeling of hate and self-destruction
to occur. Violence may also take place.
How not to commit suicide: See Volume II. Understand that
it is this inner tumorlike alien identity which has grown in you
as you developed your ego. It is this which speaks to you and
makes you look for more excitement and the destructive emotional
life-style. Understand that this is the way evil works. It possesses
you through these feelings of excitement taking you from highs
to lows forever seeking a means to always accomplish this behavior.
Homosexuals use sexual behavior not a preference to accomplish
the same thing. They have a strong suicidal tendency and most
likely the strongest because they carry the strongest anger towards
that which started it and gave them these confused and conflicting
feelings where that person does not know his or her true identity.
It is: "Who am, I?" This explains why the bible is against
this kind of behavior because it is entirely a spiritual deterioration.
The liberal agenda will not admit to this because they have there
own serious problem to contend with.
Note: Homosexuality becomes an accepted practice in a degenerative
society. History shows all of us that the Romans and the Greeks
fell into the same patterns to finally find that their civilization
disappeared off the face of the earth. Remember that absolute
truth is self-evident and what happened to the Romans and Greeks
is a good example of this. Only those who are self-destructive
and of the suicidal mindset wish to continue this pattern to avoid
being confronted with the truth about themselves. This is known
as self-denial, as we see so many people living in self-denial
especially when it comes to their behavior and feelings. One can
never escape Creator therefore the need to develop a psychoses
within a self-denial of the truth is prominent in a dysfunctional
society, which we live in today.
One can remove the suicidal wishes simply by understanding and
recognizing this phenomenon.
It takes constant reminders of your childish behavior, your ego
growth and needs and sick desires to want more rather than doing
that which is correct according to Creator's original design.
One must learn, as painful as it may be, to do and think according
to that which is right and not to satisfy one's feelings and wants.
It is this correct pain and suffering which is necessary to make
the change.
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